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20s. these are my desires, my memories, my truth, my writings about me discovering the life i choose to live.

sex is my necessity

distance is a crude inconvenience to my sex life. to me, a month is a hell of a long time to go without having sex. i need that connection and his touch. finally, we were able to get away in the mountains to stay in a cabin! i had never wanted him so badly. it was sexy, rough, throw myself at you sex. and it was fantastic! i just had to say that! 

p.s. i left my vibrator at my house away from school. i’m salty as fuck 

i want

i want to drink wine with him and get a little frisky. i want to talk about nonsense and about our dreams. i want to rub our feet together; just to touch his skin. i want to whisper sweet nothings into his ear. i want him to feel me, deep.

dining with nature

the sun was kissing our faces with each warming ray of light. my painted, red toes felt the cool, summer’s grass tickle them with each step; in search for the perfect spot. you tightly gripped my hand and looked towards me with your kind eyes. i can’t ever help but allow my heart to melt, as if it was the first time you’ve noticed me. the meadow ahead laid smooth, like a carpet; as if meant only for us.  

and there it was, just past the bushes with blooming color. we stood in awe of the seemingly endless land. we agreed, this was the spot. you placed the woven basket on the ground and fixed the checkered blanket just right. we filled our tummies with fresh treats and juices. a perfect picnic on a perfect summer’s day. you relaxed on your back and i laid across your chest. i wanted to snatch the clouds with my hands; light and fluffy like cotton candy. we talked about the world, our lives, our dreams, and silly things. a light breeze chilled my skin with goosebumps, you held me closer.

crossed legs we sat face to face. we scanned the grounds from left to right and all around. all we could hear were the chirps of the native birds. i laid towards the clouds once more, until your face was all i could see; smiling at me. just me is all you needed. i slid my garments to the side as i was only wearing a one piece romper. your hands grazed and caressed my breasts. hands so soft and gentle. your lips just as soft as they braced mine. you entered me. my moans released from my chest with every thrust. 

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the mountain top

the cold, winter air suffered under the warm rays of the shining sun. the snow was untouched and sparkling like diamonds. we explored through the mountain’s trail, hand in hand. we weaved around strong, handsome trees; leaving our own, marked path behind our boots. the sun hugged our bodies as it peaked through the tree tops; getting glimpses of the blinking rays. there were some quick slips on that icy road, but your stronger hands avoided any soaked clothes. 

the top of the mountain was now in a clear eyes view. we were so close to the peak of destination. we looked over the accomplished mountain below us. i took a deep breath in of the clear, winter’s air. fresh. my lugs released. exhale. a large boulder laid on top of the mountain where we chose to rest our exhausted bodies. 

an idea was sparked from our childish banter. not a soul was in sight. we took advantage of this opportune moment; to implant a memory that would instill on top of this mountain for a lifetime. you pulled your jacket over your head and fanned it down like a blanket. i eagerly seized my spot; rested my body on my elbows, legs facing you. you choose a leg and slowly removed a stocking and then the other. you pulled back my skirt with your quivering hands and slid my panties to my bare ankles. our eyes met in agreement. you had me there, on top of that mountain…

giggles and laughs of other travelers were heard in the distance. it was time to leave our christened place.

a summer drive

we were driving back home on a warm, summer night. the air felt thick yet cool through the car windows. the conversation was easy and full of laughter. my cheeks were sore from smiling so much. my hair was blowing in my face down the back, country road. my eyes soaked up the changing sky’s gradients of red, orange, and purple. i moved my hand from his hand to his thy. i was caressing the lines of his jeans, outlining them with my fingers. i gazed towards his face. he began having trouble looking at the road, his concentration was scattered with every intimate touch. he knew what i was craving. i unzipped his jeans and made my desperate move for all of his attention. i couldn’t wait till we got home. i convinced him to pull over with my tempting tongue. 

there we were, on the side of that country road. the stars were now blinking at us with approval, not a soul in sight. the world was ours. i slipped off my shorts and climbed on top of him into his seat. thrusts. up and down. he wanted more.

suddenly, he opened the door while he grabbed my hand so tightly. he looked at me straight into my eyes. no words were exchanged, i just followed his touch. he lifted me up by my sides and laid me on the hood of his car…

i keep some secrets, but our night ended with the lights of another car ;) don’t worry, we didn’t get caught. 

do you remember that night?

your hand cradled my face into it’s palm and you kissed me softly. the delicate kisses rushed with heated passion. you climbed on top of my body and pressed between my weak legs. our hearts were pumping with adrenaline and our minds filled with chaos and confusion; yet the world was still. all i could hear was our breathing and feel your heart beating into my chest. 

our hands followed our hearts; exploring each other like never before. i felt numb, yet completely alive. i knew then, right then, i wanted you. buttons were unsnapped and my fingers sneakily removed your belt. the moment… the moment was stolen by the only sane thought that arose from the depths of your unconscious. you let go.

i became someone else that night. i turned to you and spoke, “i’m going to go take a shower, with or without you.” i left you alone and never looked back. i knew you wouldn’t follow me, but she, the new me, only desperately wanted your company.

to my surprise i heard your foot steps. i turned over my shoulder to the cracking sound of bathroom door. your eyes appeared nervous and uneasy, but you wanted me too. the room began to fill with steam as the water poured and splashed the bottom of the tub. we undressed ourselves, and dared not to allow our eyes to see. my body was insecure and unsteady. i closed the curtain in your face to claim my privacy. yet again, you followed me.

there we stood bare. no hiding behind clothes. no hiding behind a mask. this was us in a frozen time. i lightly traced your chest with the tips of my fingers. i looked up into your deep, brown eyes; please don’t ever leave. you kissed me and wrapped your arms around me. we didn’t move; my feet felt cemented into the ground. i never wanted you to let go. the water danced down our bodies, yet the room was silent. 

we trailed back into your room, dripping with water from our hair. we climbed back into your bed and finished what we started…